If you asked, “How do you see this world?”

Then the boy would answer,
“I see this world as fair.
Maybe you don’t understand, as seeing me in wheelchair
While children in the same age of me running in cheer
And said, that this world would look so unfair.

I know I don’t have much time
I scared as I heard the church chime,
because to me, it sounds like hurrying time
that count my age down.

But see, I still can smile
I still can see, can smell
I still have complete body, although it’s small
I’m alive, for now. There’s nothing to regret in any scale.

God does make the world dark for a blind
instead, He gave a pair of sharp ears to help them.
God does make the world silent for a deaf
but he gave a pair of sharp eyes to comfort them.

Then why should I regret mine?
If even one day I have to die, I wouldn’t in vain
I would have less stain.
Because there’re so much thing I have to restrain.

You may said I’m trying to cheer myself
It’s up to you, but it is my belief
My trust to the lord who make me as myself

This world is fair.
It isn’t as bad as you think
When you experienced things that hurt so much,
Then remember, it does have a meaning behind
and the you’ll feel lucky
because there are people who have experienced much worse!”

*Cape bikin rhyme-nya. bener deh*

Really. I’ve been really religious these days. Is it because this day is Februari? Maybe? Because I have to face the truth at March? Damn, I’ve been really nervous.

Yah, intinya. Congrats buat yang udah keterima USM 1 UnPar dan meskipun agak telat, congrats sekali lagi buat yang udah punya Universitas gak kaya gw, heu Tinggal berperang lawan UAN – UAS. Yeah, maju terus pantang mundur! demi kemerdekaan indonesia? *lah?*

and by the way, I feel rather lonely again these days. Being a bit too sensitive I reckon. Dunno why. Sometimes I hope I can hop into other people’s mind to find out what they’re thinking about me. But it’s none of my business anyway. As long as they don’t lie.

But ppl always lie.

So there’s actually no point in asking. Maybe it’s only 1 from 10.

So yeah, back to topic the world is fair. Have you ever think of it?

For example, not many people can draw, but do you know that (maybe) most people who able to draw are suck in maths *and physics! grrhh*? And I found out (or maybe try to think) that most people who are great in math, aren’t that glorious in arts. Although it’s true that music makes you smarter.

Even if they can do both, they still aren’t flawless, aren’t they?

So don’t go and blame yourself of being good in nothing. Maybe it’s just something non-academical, or maybe it’s something invisible, such as social skill. Not everyone is good in making friends Sometimes, some of them found it difficult even only to greet people.

We are created with our own way, our own flaw, our own quality. No one is perfect, yet to no one live with only flaws. It’s good to compete, but it’s not a reason to curse yourself of your skill. Look up to feel the sky and set your goal, look to your side to compete, and look down to feel optimistic

Cheers!

6 + 16 = 22

Fifteen or twenty minutes after I wrote this post (9.47), I should be at Schiphol Airport, Amsterdam. My flight was should be yesterday at 6.45pm, from Jakarta to Amsterdam via Kualalumpur. But yet, I’m still here, in my beloved home, before my dear laptop.

Today is 27 August, and I’ve just had a chemistry test at school.

I remember, it’s only 5 multiple choice and 1 essay, for 40 minutes. The test is all about Reduction-Oxidation reaction, and you have to give them the correct coefficient. The method used is ion-electron and oxidation-number *beat me, I don’t know the exact name of the method actually*

And I do only the essay.

Why?

Because the problem of the Essay:

Cu4[Fe(CN)6] + Co(Mno4)3 + H2SO4 –> CoSO4 + MnSO4 + CuSO4 + Fe2(SO4)3 + CO2 + NO + H20

And I spend forty minutes for all of it…

Garudayana by Is Yuniarto

Ada sebuah legenda di dunia Arcapada

Tentang dia yang bergelar Gaganesvara

sang raja langit.

Angin memujanya

Halilintar ditaklukannya,

Para naga lari dari hadapannya…

dan inilah kisahnya.

Pas gw pertama kali baca sinopsisnya, kirain ini cerita keren-kerenan. Jadi ga gitu tertarik. Liat covernya lucu juga seh, wayang Indonesia banget, dengan segala hiasan kepala a’la wayangnya.
Tapi setelah liat review dari Dive2sky, plus diceritain juga, akhirnya saia tertarik dengan komik 1 ini ^^

Garis besarnya seputar cerita wayang yang paling terkenal, Mahabharata. Dikisahkan seorang cewek nekat pemburu harta karun yang menemukan sebuah telur emas. Telur tersebut ternyata adalah telur terakhir dari Garuda, mereka yang menjadi raja langit.
Telur garuda ini menjadi incaran raksasa ashura yang ingin memakannya untuk mendapatkan kehidupan abadi. Cewek nekat ini pun menyelamatkan garuda kecil ini dengan bantuan seorang ksatria bernama gatotkaca.

Lanjutannya baca sendiri

rating gw bisa kasih 15/10. ditambah acungan jempol 4 biji (kalo bisa lebih). Ceritanya bener2 Ngendonesiah banget, dengan humor-humor yang bikin swt dan ngakak. Terutama dengan kemunculan Trio Punakawan yang… awalnya sih garing, tapi di belakang bener-bener bikin ngakak berat. Petruk, Gareng, Bagong. Taulah itu wayang cacad 3 kelakuannya kaya apa XD

(omong-omong, muka aslinya kok disensor mlulu?)

Buat para cewek penggemar bishonen, mungkin bakal guling-guling dan ber’kyaakyaa’ ria dengan kemunculan pertama dan kedua Arjuna.

Anyway.
Maju terus komik lokal Indonesia!

-Kimi ga Hikari ni Kaete Yuku | Kalafina | Kara no Kyoukai ED2-

“Mezameta asa ni wa namida ga
Houseki no you ni ochiteku
Mirai no naka he”

Up until now, I don’t believe in ‘Friendship last forever’ or something similar to that.

It’s not that I’m an emo or an anti social (although I sometimes isolated myself from my surroundings just to think ) but… simply because I know how does it feel to be betrayed. Since I was in elementary school. Ok, now stop being mellow and get straight to the topic, Luna.

It’s a lame, old, dusty, and boring stories. The reason why this blog name changed into ‘Bitter Chocolate’ and I stopped writing my first-ever daily life story.
I believe that I had  told this story a long time ago. So I won’t repeat it I said.
I just still hope that even if she thought that what she did was innocent, I just want her to know that the one here has to wear another mask again. And, it’s damn tiring..

So, this’s merely my opinion.
Friendship won’t last forever. If I said this specifically, your group won’t last forever. Some friendship truly last forever, but they met certain conditions, like… no groupings and no taking self-advantages over others and so on. But what happen in our kind of friendship, in High School, especially in Indonesia, isn’t something I consider as… a true friendship. They tend to be something that could make you exist, makes you popular and famous.

What I want to say that almost all teenagers in Indonesia, high-schooler I might said, especially in private school, form a possessive form of a friendship. They tend to make a private group, which only ‘friends’ allowed. I’m not going to say that this is forbidden or very bad or something like that. But in my point of view, this kind of friendship, where there’s a patron and follower, or something like that (that’s sarcastic, FYI), can break easily, although to maintain the bond between them, it’s pretty easy.

How can you keep the bond between your group members?

By forbid every single of them to have another close friend, of course. Keep in touch with them, use them, forbid every single of your friend to have another close friend except your group members, open up your and your friends’ secrets among them, start gossipping everyone you dislike, although you heard only rumours about them, have lunch together, pull your boyfriend or girlfriend into the group etc etc etc. There’s a lot more way to keep your mates in group than to keep a close relationship with someone who’s far from you.The result? Your group may keep going smoothly until you graduate from High School, and then, the bond will automatically breaks as every single of them starts their own college life.
Oh, except if all of the group enroll the same colleges and the same major. I hardly think that there’ll be any though.

The consequences? They’ll be isolated from the outer world and from their own friends. Their network will revolved .around their groups, (this maybe the same for loner and introverted-type people, maybe worse ) And in the process to strengthen the bond among them, someone will surely get hurt. For sure.

The experience of being ignored, hurted, and betrayed (in my POV) are maybe the most painful experince I’ve ever had in my high school life. But then, I realized that those experience had taught me the most, even more than any social experience I’ve gone through.  It taught me how to overcome pain and sadness, how to conceals my thoughts and idea, how to see people through their face, their expression, especially smiles, and their everyday behavior, and more importantly, a lesson that I will remember for the rest of my life. Never trust other easily, especially those who can’t understand you, those who have never through loneliness, and those who have a tendencies to stick to their own friends. Because someday, they’ll speak out your secrets. Beware of fake smiles and sweet words!

I won’t blame or say something bad about people who can’t stand loneliness. I know  that only few of them can stand being all alone. Maybe even no one. They have at least a friend. But please, if you can’t stand being lonely, why not try to understand those who have been alone in your sight? Fine, they might look cold, but it’s just their “defensive” position, not because they don’t want to be friend with you or what. An Ice barrier is a good one to filter friends. Those who can penetrate the coldness and get inside the wall will get their sweet side.
But people like this have bad tendencies. They tend to be possessive and introvert, sometimes even jealousy =_____=;;

And sadly, people like these often to be a victim of things-I’ve-said-before. In the end, they have to accept the fact that they’re disliked, thrown (maybe), isolated, being gossipped, and so on.
Although that, they might looks fine with their surroundings and people around them. Well, I’m not going to tell you how can they do that, since one’s way is different with another. As for me, the way to look fine and keep going is rather hard and painful, although it’s been proofed to mean a lot of help in many situations.

The conclusion, I suggest you to build network as wide as possible. Don’t stick too much to your close friends. It’s better to have one or more close friends, or something they call it best friend, because you still need someone to believe in and who believes in you. Stay out of grouping as hard as you can, because they’ll break in the end. The most important, try to understand other, not to judge them.

I wrote this based on my analysis on myself and my friends and/or my acquitances. This may be very wrong, so don’t believe in this blabbering very much. I just want to.. share my ideas.

Sorry for bad english also.

“And the raven looks into the sky
Silently, spreads its wings
It croaked and cry
But no one hear its sad sing”

Uh so.. It’s been ages since I updated this blog for the last time.

How’re you everyone?? Still alive? How’s first week of school? ^^ Feelin’ dead already?

Well, since I’m now in twelfth grade at school, the scariest thing has been waiting already for me. Yes, national final exam University Test! Time sure flies much too fast..
Anyway, it’s scary not because I haven’t decide on which major yet, instead, it’s scary because I had decided on which major I’ll try to enroll, no I’m going to enroll. :evillaugh: Wait there, I’ll go get you, UnPar!

How about you? ^^

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Akhirnya gw pulang! :rofl: Miss me, anyone?
Anyway, mau cerita-cerita soal gw di pangandaran

Anime and Manga (Comic, include Manhwa, Korean comic) are for children, not for the grown ups.

This is the general opinion in my country, Indonesia. Most parents said, and believed that anime and manga are just for children. They thinks that anime is a mere cartoon, just like Mickey Mouse and friends, they never tried to see the reality, they’ve never tried to understand something called anime.

Ironically, Most of TV production’s staff, think the same. They broadcast anime, aiming at children aged around 5 to 7 or 8. They think, and believe that animes are children only. They broadcast anime such as NARUTO, or EYESHIELD 21, or ONE PIECE, or BLEACH, or whatever it is, at the time when children watches TV. (I’ve almost never watch any of them on local TV Station though ) Ironic! As the result, most children are taught how to fight, or how to force people or whatever thet called it “negative effect of Japanese Cartoon”.

And whose fault is it?

I saw a book titled “Tolong, anakku diasuh NARUTO” (Help! My children are being taken care by NARUTO) on one of the biggest book store in my town this morning. When I read the synopsis, I felt like.. well, disgusted. Not because I hate Naruto or what (I’m an ex-fans of Naruto and still respect it :3), but the book, it seems like the author blamed the film (in this case, Naruto) for have taught the children in Indonesia how to fight or whatever. Alright, I acknowledge the fact that everything has positive side along with negative side. The book itself said that Naruto have positive things inside.

Please people, open your eyes! Anime and Manga are not for children! Naruto, Bleach, Eyeshield 21, and One Piece are not children’s TV programme, they are teens! Even if you want to allow your child to watch any anime, guide them! They still can’t tell whether the fact is a fiction or the fiction is a fact, and they still can’t restrain themself from mirroring their favourite character (this, is what happened at WWE cases).

I suggest thee, parents of Indonesia, try to watch Naruto, or even try to read the newest volume of Naruto (Sasuke vs Itachi), and you’ll know, that manga aren’t for children. Blood everywhere, stab here and there, one thing in mind, kill. That’s what you say as “suitable for children”

Thank you.

(I’m a fans of anime and manga, and I’m concerned about children in Indonesia.)

*Naruto, Eyeshield 21, Bleach, and One Piece are all belongs to their respective holder.*

It’s been a long time since I updated this blog I’m kinda lazy actually..

Dari pertengahan bulan ini, gw udah keracunan Kuroshitsuji! >.< Gile, ni manga/anime satu keren banget. Konyol dengan cara yang serius :rofl:. Lagi ngejar anime-nya sih gw. Katanya bentar lagi tamat, jadi siap-siap duit 30k buat nitip 1 disc ini anime konyol. wakakak!
Secara garis besar, ini ceritanya:

-The Black Butler-

To what extent must a housekeeper do things to be acceptable?

One of the noble families of England: Phantomhive’s butler: Sebastian Michaelis has got unquestionably perfect knowledge, manners, talent with materials, martial arts, et cetera: but is also able to serve a 12 year old master.
Wearing a grey tailcoat, gracefully brewing the worlds strongest red tea, please read on to see how such a perfect butler copes with such a master…

Yah bacalah, ada pun dan intelligent-joke di dalam /gg *dan entah kenapa lagu yang terus-terusan disetel ma gw itu lagu ED2nya, Lacrimosa*

Second, gw juga lagi suka sama 07 Ghost. Beda dari Kuroshitsuji yang sebenernya cerita berat dan serius yang dibikin konyol, 07 Ghost itu cerita berat, agak gothic, religius *a’la anime*,  dan super TRAGIS yang diselipin humor. Animenya keluar April ini. Keliatannya bakal bagus juga
Ini summary-nya

-Teito Klein, 07 ghost-

An elite is being trained. The “zaiphon” ability is being developed. Everyone’s capabilities are different, and in many cases, reflect their nature… Shrouded in darkness, seven ghosts wait.

Yah, 07 ghost itu istilah di dalem manganya. Mereka itu semacem.. 7 archangel lah kira-kira. keren loh, cuma, peringatan buat  yang baca, manga ini mengandung unsur agama, terutama Katolik yang kuat.. you’ve been warned

Dan seperti biasa, ada list anime yang lagi gw incer. Kebanyakan anime lama sih, tapi yaa.. gpp kan?

1. Gankutsuou – Le Comte de Monte Cristo/The Count of Monte Cristo versi Jepang
2. The Sky Crawler – Lagi dipang DLin, tapi kayanya bakal lama banget (
3. Ergo Proxy – baru inget lagi gw pengen nonton ini anime. parah ya?
4. Kuroshitsuji – sudah disebutkan di atas. haha
5. Kara no Kyoukai – The Garden of Sinners.. kayanya rame sih, nunggu sampe 7 movie ada semua deh
6. Ghost in the Shell 2nd Gig – Tinggal ngejar yang ini sama beberapa biji lagi neh

Paling segitu.. apa lagi ya??

Oh iya, kmaren ini baru nonton Eagle Eye di bioskop. Rame! Beneran rame ini mah, gak bo’ong. Sayang sekali waktu gw nonton ada cewek-cewek sialan orang-orang di depan gw, 3 baris, ribuuuttt terus. Sebel deh.

Genrenya Action, Thriller, Sci-fi. Jalan cerita agak bokep berat seperti biasa. Trus, yang paling gw suka, karena AI (Artificial Intelligence) nya itu loh. Gaya ^^

Summary, seperti biasa:

Jerry Shaw is an amiable slacker with an over-achieving twin brother. After his twin dies in an accident, strange things happen to Jerry at a dizzying pace: a fortune shows up in his bank account, weapons are delivered to his flat, and a voice on his cell phone tells him the police are on their way. Jerry follows the voice’s instructions, and soon he and a woman he’s never met are racing through the city, on to a plane, and eventually to the Pentagon, chased by the FBI. She is Rachel Holloman, a single mom; the voice has threatened her son’s death if she doesn’t cooperate. The voice seems to know everything.

rame loohh

Target berikutnya: Dragonball Evolution

Happy Birthday, my Original Character!
Akatsuki “GENEVA” Kuroki Ryo, 15 January. He’s my original character from Soldier-Children of fate

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No real meaning with this post actually And that’s why I don’t add any tag